Friday, January 6, 2012

Paint Party Friday.....Week 43

I struggled to come up with a focus word for 2012. 
Both 2010 and 2011 were horrific years for me personally. I suffered loses and betrayals that nearly broke me. But I hung on and refused to give up and things did get better. Much better!  
Even though things were working out for me I was still having issues with anger and other strong emotions.  Which would pop up out of the blue and knock the wind out of my sails. 
On New Years Day I decided that I had to forgive and get on with life or I was going to be unhappy forever. I thought about it all day and that night as we went to bed ...I simply rolled over and said..."I forgive you!"  I couldn't see his face in the dark but I could feel his relief....and it was like a ton of bricks were lifted off my chest. Not only did I forgive him but I forgave myself also and was able to release the anger I had kept bottled up inside. 
So my word for the year has become a phrase instead...

The journal pages I'm sharing are the ones I made as I worked through these decisions. Funny how you can sometimes put things into your art that you can't say in words. Once you finish the piece and register what the message is is a "DA" moment. 

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  1. Oh Carol. I'm so sorry for what suffering you've been through. I wish you the best in the healing process. Life is good, just remember that. I love what you've painted in your journal pages. Great meanings and color. Art has a way of soothing us as we release our souls onto paper/canvas or whatever. Take care and have a great year.

  2. Carol ~ Wonderful art ~ color, creative and even joyous ~ Amazing what happens when we decide not to be 'victims' and let go and forgive and art does heal the soul ~ We love you ~~ thanks, namaste, Carol (Share the Creative Journey) Happy PPF ^_^

  3. oh wow!!! lovely pieces...great colours Carol!!!!

  4. Sometimes we have to let it go, in a way or another. I have been living with inner anger for all my life, and I'm now learning how to release it. I found that art is very helpful.
    I wish you a happier 2012!

  5. Love your journal pages, and so glad you have been able to change your attitude and get more peace for yourself! Valerie

  6. Forgivness is powerful but also very hard. I applaud you for it and wish you the best year of your life. :)

  7. Loving your great pages and thank you for sharing them with us. May 2012 be a great year for you. Out with the old and on with the new. Happy PPF and have a great weekend, hugs Annette x

  8. Gorgeous, journal pages.
    And a very brave post, Carol.
    You are an inspiration to us all.

    So glad I've met you through ppf.

    Mixed-Media Map Art

  9. Beautiful journal pages. You can feel the relief and the lightness of spirit in them. Hope this year is full of wonderful things for you.

  10. Such powerful pieces of art, Carol. Your decision is one we can all learn from because it is the only way to be truly free again. Thanks for sharing.

  11. Oh wow, Carol, I'm wiping a tear away on this one, I can soooooo relate to this. And your journal pages are filled with images that have meant alot to me, especially the owl ( who can see through the "darkness"), thank you for sharing all of this, it made my day BIG TIME! Love, Deb

  12. This is such a beautiful and brave post, Carol. I am so glad you found the power to forgive... it is an amazing gift to yourself (and your sharing it is a gift to all of us).

    Thank you.


  13. Decisions are tman and moments of crisis, are always transferred in the art, so from the beginning of time. Un saludos

  14. Sorry to hear things have been so bad. It sounds like the exact right words for you this year. Hope 2012 is a much better year.

    Great pages!

  15. oh, I am so happy for you now. I am sorry you've had so many struggles, but what a way to start the new year. I have such a good feeling about this year. So glad you have art, and wonderful pages, to release!

    <3 Daniele

  16. All the pieces this week are just wonderful. Your three words (Forgive-Release-Grow) really spoke to me as I am overcoming betrayal/pain almost four years now. It is a day by day process, in the beginning just to even get through it it is a minute by minute walk through the darkness. I hope this year is big and bright for you!
    Wishing you a wonderful 2012!
    Sheri Cook/HappyHorseStudio

  17. Thanks for the kind thoughts for Mrs. T., Carol. We saw the oncologists at Mayo today and the prognosis is very good. No chemo required. :)

  18. lovely painting you got here..wish i can paint but i can'!

    happy Tuesday to you Carol..take care always!

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  19. So many people have had a bad few years. Letting go, forgiving and going forward is the right thing.
    Love your art.

  20. These pages in your art journal are so beautiful, Carol, and full of emotion! So happy for you--forgiving, releasing and growing. May your 2012 be the best year yet!